BOY

“All I knew was that I felt a bit different. My way to compensate for that was to say, ‘Well, I don’t go in for those things. I don’t like the drinking. I don’t care for this carrying on, the frivolity. I’m a serious student. I’m above all this.’ To some degree, that was my way of defending myself against something I didn’t want to admit I desired to be a part of.”

“A lot of my pretensions about being a scholarly type, a person interested in serious studies, was really a defense mechanism. I was accused on a couple of occasions of being aloof, arrogant, and snobby. But it was just a defense mechanism to protect my somewhat introverted nature. I used that to compensate for my outright fear of socializing. Maybe, also, it was a way to protect myself, because I couldn’t achieve those kinds of social goals that I wanted.”

“My social life was a big zero. I spent a great deal of time with myself. It was lonely for me…I didn’t feel socially adept enough. I didn’t feel I knew how to function with those people. I felt terribly uncomfortable.”

Return to my own vomit like a dog
Rhymes and giggles muffle the dialogue
Carve my initials in a tree I will never leave
Maybe one day I’ll be royalty

Kingdom
Kindergarten
Born late
Will I graduate

Drinking fountains are shorter than they used to be
The swings on the playground don’t even fit me anymore
Folklore: Nobody’s supposed to believe in the next grade
WRITE IT A HUNDRED TIMES

Kingdom
Kindergarten
Waiting
Bells not ringing

Everything got quiet suddenly; no dolby
The theatre is empty
Film is flapping on the side of the projector
The reel is over
Banished with my sticky shoes and stinging eyes
I’M WALKING OUTSIDE

Kingdom
Kindergarten
Born late
Will I graduate

Held back again

– Faith No More