Posts tagged ‘Defending the Devil: My Story as Ted Bundy’s Last Lawyer’

February 2, 2014

“I hope you liked me.”

He asked that I use our interviews to help explain him to others, to explain that he was not a monster. He stared into my eyes and finally asked a question that was obviously very important to him:

“I need to know. Did you and Jim like me?” My heart dropped.
“Of course, Ted, of course.” I tried to push those words into Ted’s heart and allow him to believe it, as he apparently did not. I didn’t care what the truth was.

ted bundy with bill hagmaier before execution white shirt (3)

When I returned to Ted, he held a letter against the glass that he had written to me and Jim, thanking us for our representation. “I hope you liked me,” it said. “I hope this wasn’t just an unpleasant legal chore for you.” His note ended with, “I feel close to you now.”

Nelson, Polly. Defending the Devil: My Story as Ted Bundy’s Last Lawyer. 1st ed. New York: W. Morrow, 1994. Print.

January 4, 2014

“He was a real man..”

ted bundy young dapper handsome in suit

“In my mind the very point of this work was that all human life was sacred, without judgment or distinction, and that it was the truly heinous cases that tested whether we as people and as a society really meant that. Furthermore, Ted Bundy was not a symbol, a metaphor, a cardboard cutout. He was a real man, captive and rendered harmless at present, made of flesh and blood.”

Nelson, Polly. Defending the Devil: My Story as Ted Bundy’s Last Lawyer. 1st ed. New York: W. Morrow, 1994. Print.

December 9, 2013

“..he was a human being..”

ted wife beater

Ted had laid his head down on his hands, but his handcuffs cut him and he was unable to concentrate. I cupped his head in my hands. I had never been this way with Ted before, touching him, comforting him. But today was different. Today was very, very different. Today I was a human being and he was a human being and in some way we were the last two people on Earth — on his Earth, at least; in his lifetime, at least.

Finally, Ted spoke..

“I can only say that…as a young adult engaged in this kind of behavior, what I lacked and didn’t understand and express was love.”

Nelson, Polly. Defending the Devil: My Story as Ted Bundy’s Last Lawyer. 1st ed. New York: W. Morrow, 1994. Print.

April 19, 2013

“Mortal blow to my heart”

I’ve been saving this particular quote for a while, waiting for the right time. This is the right time, for me anyway.

baby bundy

“Somehow I had always imagined Ted having a lot of people in his life, a lot of people who would come to say good-bye to him. Maybe it was all the publicity that made me think that, that gave him an aura of importance. Maybe he was, publicly; but personally he was important to almost no one.”

Nelson, Polly. Defending the Devil: My Story as Ted Bundy’s Last Lawyer. 1st ed. New York: W. Morrow, 1994. Print.

December 24, 2012

Ted Bundy collage, “Eyes”

eyes

“Ted looked like a walking cadaver – except for his eyes. Just barely blue and clear as glass, Ted’s eyes looked newly born, fully alive, fully communicative. In fact, whenever I talked to him I felt like I was having two conversations at once, one with our words, and one with our eyes. It was as if Ted’s eyes were peepholes someone else was peering out of. Someone deep inside, predating his horrible history and the worn out exterior that reflected it.”

Nelson, Polly. Defending the Devil: My Story as Ted Bundy’s Last Lawyer. 1st ed. New York: W. Morrow, 1994. Print.